For You....

You are the love of my life and there is no feeling quite like being so in love with you.  Although quite possibly, the fact that you love me back just how I have always wanted to be loved, could just even it out.

I reflect on my life and I see so many mistakes I have made.  Things I have done that I wish I hadn’t and things I would like to change.  I sometimes beat myself up over them, well I used to a lot.  But since I met you, I don’t do that so much.

I often thought I could never be loved completely.  I thought I was destined to a lifetime of flimsy love.  I thought I had loved before but now I wonder how I possibly could.  I have never given so much of myself to a person, as I have to you.  And I do this because seeing you smile and happy is what completes me.

I may have met you under unusual circumstances and those circumstances may have been wrong in the eyes of many but sometimes you have to do what is right for you and although I regret the hurt and pain it has caused others, for me I made the right decision.

Because by loving you, it has made me a better person.  It has made me happy inside which makes daily life so much more bearable.  And it has made me a better Mum because instead of hiding away, I want to get out there in the world.  How, just by being loved, I can be so much more of a person than I ever was, is unexplainable but it is true.  And for that I love you.

The way you look at me with love in your eyes still astounds me today over a year later.  We may be in the honeymoon period still but with all the drama and stress our life has brought us, we have remained strong and not faltered.

I love you for so many reasons.  I love the way you make me laugh and don’t take life too seriously.  I like the way that even when I am spoiling for an argument, you can say one thing that makes me smile and laugh, no matter how much I fight it and then the tension eases away.

I love the way you need me.  I don’t think anyone has ever needed me before.  It makes me feel like a superhero of some kind.  I love the way you are, at times, vulnerable and it is then that I become the strong one.  But I love the way, the rest of the time you are the strongest person I know both mentally and physically.  I love that I never have to be scared of anything when you are there.

I love the way you like to touch me, be it holding my hand or laid out of the sofa in a twisted mess of arms and legs.  And when we go to sleep, I love the way you hold me to you or hold my hand until we are both asleep.  I like the way I wake up in the middle of the night and reach out just so I can feel you are there.

I love the way you look, to me you are perfect in every way.  From the top of your head to the tips of your toes, I know every part of you and I love each millimetre.  I love your blue eyes, freckled shoulders, square toes, freaky calves and sexy biceps.  But as much as I love your exterior, I love your interior too.

I like the way you hold me when I cry at films and how you laugh as you cannot understand why I get upset over things that aren’t true.  And how you laugh that I get so enraged over my big passion the abolition of the death penalty.  You can’t understand how I can be so sad for someone I never knew.  But I think you like it and it humours you because you can see I care.

Above anything, as I said, I love the way you love me.  You love me for me.  You love me when I’m all dressed up and ready to go out.  But you love me when I am looking rough too.  You love me when I am sick and when I am hyperactive.  There doesn’t seem to be anything that you don’t love about me.  You support me and you are always there for me.  And I don’t think you realise just how much that amazes me. 

I could write so much more but I think this tells you just how much you mean to me.  I think we compliment each other and that is what makes it so perfect.

Because all my life all I ever wanted was a man to protect me, to listen to me, to care for me, to be affectionate, to laugh with me, to cry with me.  And all my life I searched and searched.

All I wanted was a man to love me and it took a while to find you but having you completes me totally.  You are my perfection. 

Yesterday you were the love of my life, today you are the love of my life, tomorrow you will be the love of my life.  And for the rest of my days and further, you will always be the love of my life.

Love Me